One of the first signs I received from one of my deceased loved ones was after I began my spiritual work (not mediumship yet). There was a strange thing my grandmother always used to say that me and my siblings would laugh at. It was “boinga boinga Charlie”. I have never heard that saying before my grandmother or since her passing. Well, I was cleaning one day and out of my mouth came “boinga boinga Charlie”. I was spiritually educated enough at this point that I knew it was my grandmother saying hello. Another time I was driving in my car and my grandmother came and began a conversation with me in my head. I knew it wasn’t my imagination because thoughts were coming that were not my own. When my mother passed, she sent red cardinals and butterflies. There was no question it was her because the butterflies and cardinals would do things that were not natural. A butterfly stayed on the pavement next to me while I was washing my car. It was so odd that I thought there was something wrong with it and went over to check, and at that point it flew away. Red cardinals frequently fly right in front of me when I do my walking exercise, but the best sighting and most odd was when I was walking my dog, Jack, and it started to rain. As we ran home, I saw a red cardinal waiting for me on my front porch. It was the oddest thing, and obviously when we got too close, it flew away. But there was no mistaking the messenger. Also, when I visited my mother’s house after she passed to see my father, there were feathers right there in front of my path. This was a gated community not overrun by birds and I did not recall finding feathers ever during my visits there when she was alive. This occurred twice. I have become comfortable with my mother’s communication now that time has passed and she just speaks to me in my head. When I was going through her closet when my father sold the house, and I was putting stuff in a pile for Goodwill, I could hear her say, don’t give that away, you can sell that! And she was right – many of those items did sell for a pretty penny. I believe once we acknowledge that our loved ones haven’t dissolved into thin air, and they are right here with us separated only by an energetic vibrational difference, the lines of communication will open as much or as little based on what we are personally ready to handle.

Today I went to an old historic cemetery. What I noticed right away were images of faces on the tombstones. I walked around and turned my sensitivities on. I was drawn to two tombstones – William Baird (1858) and next to him, his wife, Rhoday Baird (1835). I knew there was something up with them. I then went and sat on the bench and closed my eyes. This is always a little unnerving because as I start to get quiet, my senses are heightened and it feels like there is someone right there behind me. I wanted to run but pushed through knowing I wasn’t in any danger. First William came through as a young very handsome and rugged man with blue eyes and longish hair. He just appeared in my mind’s eye and I knew who it was. Then his wife, Rhoday came through. She communicated with me. She was very attractive, also with blue eyes, and a rugged appearance for her young age due to her hard life. She had a witty sense of humor and marveled at how things are so much easier for women now. She showed what a laborious life she had and also showed herself raising many children. She suffered from a musculoskeletal disorder which made moving around difficult for her. Then an old man came through as kind of a spokesperson and said the spirits were grateful that I came to link with them. He also showed that they are not “living there”, but when someone comes to their grave, it draws their attention and they just come to see who’s calling. I then felt a strong breeze, and a touch on my cheek. I felt really good – energized, and I knew I was finished. I looked up William and Rhoday and found them on Family Search. They had 5 children and were from Morris, NJ.

It’s so important to take time out but we are often too busy to do it. That’s usually when spirit steps in and makes it happen. I lead a very busy life with a full time job, a psychic side practice, an online store where I am trying to keep up with listing all of the items I moved here from my parents’ house sale, and caring for two senior dogs who suffer emotionally when I run out to the store. But unexpectedly, I was pulled out for service on another family matter. Now I find myself in a quiet house, with no chores, no work, and no animals. Only time. And in that time, I am finding clarity. Things I had been mulling at home came right to the forefront and arranged themselves out before me in such a way that I could not see before. And, I’m venturing out on a peaceful hike in nature at a local trail. More clarity on the horizon. I am forever grateful for my guides who continue to show me that they always know better than I do!

When you begin to work with spirit, you will be tested – over and over again for a long time, until you finally get that the only way to pass these tests is to utterly let go. Here is an example that came to mind today. I used to live in Miami, Florida in a beautiful townhouse on a canal in which manatees were frequent visitors. There were lush greens and fruit trees everywhere, not to mention beautiful sunshine where you could step outside at any time on any day of the year. But I was being asked to move. And as things began to become more clear, it appeared I would be moving to Baltimore, Maryland. This was right during the time of the Freddie Gray riots. I looked up in dismay and asked WHY??? In my mind, who would ever move to Baltimore, MD, period. But I obediently went. I found a job and a place to live and worked in downtown Baltimore. The first thing I noticed about Maryland was the people were so nice. They said hello for no reason. I made some very good friends at work and began to find my niche. Then little by little, life started to get better. I found a quaint little town 40 minutes south of Baltimore and bought a townhouse there. I also noticed I was closer to DC so I got a job in DC. The salaries in DC are life changing and after 2 years, I am still in shock as they continue to go up. And the State of Maryland so resonates with me. There is so much nature here and the four seasons exist but the winters are on the mild side. My life turned out far better than I could have ever imagined for myself just by being willing to move in a direction that looks bad in complete trust. What inspired this little blog was I was out walking my dogs and the neighbors were so friendly. I never talk to them, but they know who I am and on some level have accepted me and decided to like me. I am so blessed to have been dropped into the State of Maryland in this small town on this small little piece of heaven.

Every once in awhile I purchase a lottery ticket. I was saying out loud to myself that I should check my ticket because maybe I won the lottery. Then, in my head, I heard “you ARE the lottery”. It wasn’t until several days later while driving that I received the clarity of that statement. We are the creators. We bring to ourselves everything that we receive. The idea that I will only get what I want if I win the lottery is actually an idea based in lack and playing the lottery perpetuates the notion of lack assuming I can’t create at any point in time exactly what I need. And the need to hole up a huge chunk of money all at once in case I need it assumes I am incapable of attracting exactly what I need exactly when I need it. I have personally tested these premises through being unemployed for 3 years having only an online retail business as my sole support. I would panic when bills would come in, but I received guidance that said not to pay until “I see the whites of their eyes” and on the 11th hour, the exact amount of dollars I needed would come in. This happened ad infinitum in many different last hour stressful situations. I would get on my knees in surrender and just brace myself. But the storm never came. My life was transformed by that experience, physically, emotionally and spiritually. The message “you ARE the lottery” was profound, and I had forgotten it in my complacency.

When I was in massage school, before we graduated and received our state license, we had to participate in a massage clinic that was open to the public and give free massages. It was a great way to get experience before starting our practice. I have used this same model for my Mediumship and Tarot practice. I have attended mediumship school, seminars, development groups, and received personal mentoring. I am now happy to report that I am upgrading to Practice Status. That means that I have completed a sufficient number of accurate readings to comfortably hold myself out as a professional psychic medium and tarot reader. I am hanging my virtual sign out and prices and payment buttons can be found in the “Contact” section of this website. Thank you to everyone who trusted me with their loved ones and to all those who allowed me to read their tarot cards.

I love living in a harmonious world. It comes naturally these days but in the beginning, it required a complete shift in thought, and a continuous re-directing of my thoughts to what made me feel better. Little by little, my world became a wonderland of joy and surprise by what amazingness was around the next corner. Then I came to expect it. We are never done growing and reaching new levels of understanding, but it’s nice to stop and reflect on how far I’ve come from where I was. Yesterday, I began wanting something in a very strong and heartfelt emotional way. My intentions were pure and what I wanted benefited others as well as me. Today, someone mentioned, out of the blue, that they were offering up for sale this very something that my heart began to desire just yesterday. I am so grateful on so many levels. I know that my eyes becoming open was not my doing, and the only part I had in this whole process was the desire and lack of resistance to being shown a better way.

In my early years of learning about double (and triple) same digit numbers, I earnestly sought their meanings and desperately tried to unlock the secrets my guides were trying to relay to me when I saw these numbers. 16 years later, and I believe I found the answer. There isn’t one. For me, when I see these numbers, it simply means I have achieved a degree of alignment with my spirit guides that when I was prompted, I looked at the clock at exactly that time. So I was responding to their prompts which is always a good thing, especially if the stakes were higher than looking at a clock. As for double digit dates, i.e., 11/11…well, I have run the gamut of buying multiple lottery tickets on those days and expecting major events to unfold, but I never won and they never did. Today, I am peacefully content with any day of the year and know that divine time can be anytime since there is no time in the Divine Realms. However, I must mention that sometimes these kinds of synchronicities can be given as confirmation that what you are doing or about to do gets a green light. For example, I found a dog on a highway and brought it home for safekeeping prepared to bring to a no-kill shelter. But this little dog jumped up on me and cuddled me affectionately and I looked at the clock and it was 3:33. I knew I had to keep my little beloved Oliver.

There is so much more to mediumship than whether I got the information right or wrong anymore. I’m starting to delve into it’s many dimensions. And when I go into that place where I open myself up to receive spirit communication, I open myself up to all aspects of psychic ability. I was giving a reading two days ago and I saw a birthday cake and someone was receiving a record player for their birthday. The person I was reading for couldn’t take that. The next day, I was watching a movie about Judy Garland. After the movie, I googled her to learn more about her, and in the photos, she was at her birthday party with a cake and J.B. Mayer was giving her a record player for her birthday. I received a precognitive image while doing a mediumship reading. So now I know that can happen and to never judge what comes through as right or wrong.

Whenever I do Tarot readings, the cards always “speak” to me and I receive exact words to use from Spirit, because there is specific energy behind each and every word. Even though we are theoretically “reading the cards”, the very act of opening the reading by invoking our spirit guides to provide information for our highest good in the energy of love, makes it so. Our energy lifts during the reading and the cards become a conduit for our guides to communicate through. I do this even when I read for myself. I do not do any kind of psychic reading without the assistance of my spirit guide. And the only way to stay in alignment with my guide is to keep my energy vibration high. I do that through maintaining contact through meditation, and minding my energy and thoughts throughout my day. Otherwise I can’t connect, and it will be felt in my readings.